Like
most children growing up, I had to deal with my share of bullying. Most
of these were relatively minor instances, but trying for the emotional
child I was. At one point in middle school, I even became a bully, for
reasons I can’t even comprehend as an adult. Fortunately, it did not
last more than a couple of weeks, because my victim finally made the
decision to stand up to me.
Beyond
my brief and shameful period as a bully, most of my encounters with
bullies were the result of witnessing the bullying of others, and
reaching my breaking point to speak up for others when they would not
speak up for themselves. Sadly, I never spoke up enough to completely
end their bullying, all I did was end a few instances. But the
experiences did teach me that to truly end bullying, you have to stand
up for yourself.
My
most memorable instance of being bullied was in high school during my
Junior year. A small group of my friends and I spent many of our
lunches in the school library playing Dungeons and Dragons and other
games. A classmate of ours, whom we’ll call Wesley, apparently decided
that was reason enough to pick on us. At first Welsey’s attacks were
merely verbal, and we ignored him - after all, at that point in time, if
you played D&D openly, derision of your hobby of choice was to be
expected.
When
Wesley realized his verbal taunting was doing little to bother us, he
escalated things a little bit. Honestly, it was so many years ago, I
don’t remember the specifics, though some of my friends may.. What I do
remember is that as a result of his actions, we asked the librarian if
we could move our games to one of the private study rooms, and she
agreed we could. For a while, that helped, until the day of our final
encounter with Wesley. That final encounter is what I remember the
most.
One
lunch period, Wesley let himself into our study room. We were right in
the middle of something important in our game, and he reached down and
picked up a pair of dice I was using.
“Give me back the dice, Wesley,” I said, in what I recall as a calm, but firm voice.
“What are you going to do about it,” was the gist of his reply.
After
about a half a dozen repetitions of my request, and his taunting
replies, I had had enough, and I unleashed. Things got physical - which
was, and still is, pretty rare for me. Wesley found himself shoved up
against the wall with my hand on his throat, and a shocked look on his
face.
“Give
me back the dice, Wesley,” I repeated for the last time, but my voice
was now brimmed with venom. Wesley dropped the dice, I let him go and
that was the end of it. As far as I can recall, Wesley did not bother me
nor my friends for the rest of our time in school.
What
I recall the most of this event isn’t the details, but the way I felt
when I snapped, and unleashed on Wesley. It was anger, righteous
indignation, vengeance and a sense of violation all rolled into one. But
with all that, there was also an overriding sense of not giving a fuck
what happened to me. Wesley was a bigger guy than me, I had almost no
fighting experience, and frankly, in the back of my mind, I just knew I
was going to get my ass kicked. But I didn’t care, damnit - I was
determined to go down swinging.
Every
single one of us has that snapping point, that point in time where we
feel the actions we take are far, far more important than consequences
we will suffer for them. The most profound example I can think of this
point is that of the passengers of United flight 93 on Sept 11th, 2001.
They reached a point where they knew they were going to die, but
damnit, they weren’t going down without a fight. Their actions
ultimately didn’t change their fate, but they probably changed the fates
of hundreds, possibly even thousands of other lives.
Sometimes
it’s the other way around. Sometimes people feel they are being
bullied, and snap, even when hindsight shows they over reacted. A good
example of this is the Oklahoma City bombing - McVeigh repeatedly said
that his actions were a response to the government’s actions at Ruby
Ridge and Waco TX. His actions may have been reprehensible nor
justified, but I don’t think any of us can deny that he reached a point
where he snapped.
We
are at a point in this nation where millions of Americans feel they are
being bullied by the government. Specifically, I’m referring to the
fight surrounding the 2nd Amendment. This fight cannot go on at it’s
current level without someone else snapping.
What I find surprising is the number of people who can’t or won’t factor this into the conversation.
From
the research I’ve done, an estimated 30-34% of our population are
lawful gun owners. That’s an estimated 70-80 million adults who legally
own guns. Let’s go with the lower of that number - 70 Million gun
owners. If 99.9% of gun owners do not reach their snapping point with
any future gun laws, that still leaves 0.1% who will. That’s 70,000
people at their snapping point. To put that in perspective, that’s
approximately the same number of people as live in Sheboygan WI, or
Flagstaff AZ.
Now
let’s assume that is only people who are at their snapping point, but
not yet over it. They have not yet been faced with the incident that
causes them to snap. An incident such as law enforcement confronting
them about their previously legal guns. If only one percent of those
people are actually faced with an incident, and shooting starts, that’s
still 700 incidents of shoot outs with law enforcement over something
that was previously legal. If only one percent of those incidents
result in the death of a law enforcement officer, that’s still 7
officers dead.
Now
consider that’s only pushing 0.1% to their snapping point, and only 1%
of those being confronted. Things have the potential to be much, much
worse. Put the number at their snapping point at 1%, and you get
700,000 people who are potential trouble. That’s between the population
of Allentown PA, and Rochester NY. If 1% of those are faced with an
incident, and again, only 1% of those incidents result in the death of a
law enforcement officer, that’s 70 officers dead.
If
the percentage of people pushed to their snapping point is higher - and
I have no doubt it could be as high as 6-7% - then you’re looking at
hundreds of potential law enforcement deaths over enforcement of gun
laws.
These
quick calculations leave out a lot of other factors as well. I’m only
pointing out the lives of law enforcement officers, the ones who are on
the perceived “good” side - agents of government. What about deaths of
those who fight back when confronted? Ruby Ridge had a death toll of
three - two from the Weaver family, and one law enforcement officer.
Waco had a death toll of 84 - 80 Branch Davidians and 4 law enforcement
officers.
Furthermore,
every death caused by government confrontation over gun laws is a
potential catalyst for further violence. The ATF’s illegal actions at
Ruby Ridge, and perceived illegal actions at Waco were a catalyst for
the 168 deaths in the Oklahoma City bombing.
In
a nutshell, being too aggressive with anti-gun laws in this country has
the potential to get ugly fast. Real fast. Especially when you
consider how fast information (and misinformation) about these type of
incidents can spread. An overzealous ATF officer in Minneapolis could
very well touch off an incident that leads to the deaths of FBI agents
in Los Angeles and beyond.
For
an agenda that says “if we can save even one life with these laws, it’s
worth it” I find it incredulous that they don’t consider the potential
loss of life these laws could cause, especially when pushed by a
government that has done much to erode our trust. Because it’s not just
gun laws we’re talking about, but laws and policies that violate many
other Amendments, too.
The
death of a child is a tragic thing. I agree that we should take prudent
steps to protect their lives. But we’re also at a tipping point where
another incident like Ruby Ridge could set off a firestorm and
anti-government backlash that we might not be able to contain.By ignoring that potential, we're not being prudent.
Ramming
through more anti-gun laws only increases the likelihood of things
spiraling out of control unexpectedly. The 26 lives lost at Newtown, and
the 12 lives lost at Aurora’s Century theater will mean nothing if the
emotional reactions to them give us ill-conceived feel good laws that
lead to even more deaths.
Once
again, I find myself standing up for those who are being bullied. In
other words, it’s time for the government to stop bullying law abiding
citizens, because a significant number of them appear to be at, or near
their snapping point.